Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Why Can't I Just Say It?

For some reason, I have this inability to ask for space from DL when I need it, and instead I'm just moody and tetchy with her, until we end up in an argument.
I really don't know why I do it, I can tell within myself when I'm coming down with joined at the hip syndrome, so why can't I just say, "darling, do you
mind if we have some space?" Now by space, I don't mean weeks apart, I just mean maybe a day out with the girls, or a night out with friends, or simply
a few hours away from each other in other people's company. I guess it's because I'm afraid I'll end up offending her, and making her feel like I don't
want to be around her, because she doesn't seem to get the craving for space like I do. Yet by being stroppy, I do that anyway, and it goes on for a lot
longer. I just need to tell her straight. This time we've been arguing back and forth since last night, and now she's gone out after us having words. I
hate when it gets like this, and it's mainly my fault for not being honest about the way I feel. I'm going out for a drink with Kim tonight, so hopefully
I'll feel better after that. Relationships are so complicated sometimes! And now I feel like a twat.

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